To My Boyfriend, The Man I Never Could Have Dreamed Of:

I just realized I forgot we have been dating for four months as of December 22nd and that's a huge accomplishment for me. I've never been in a relationship where I could be certain someone would be there for me in the long haul. The months don't matter anymore, because I know you'll be here month after month.

Between my anxiety, my learning disability, and degenerative spinal condition, I never could have imagined you. I have always felt like I was too much for people, but at the same time, I was never enough for them. I always felt like I would never meet someone who would care about me in the way you do, and love and accept me for the quirky and awkward person I am. But here you are, and you amaze me in more ways that I could ever imagine.

I know I'm an intense person. I know I'm strong-willed and I'm stubborn. I know I read into things and worry obsessively. Anxiety does that to a person.

I know that sometimes I get on your nerves, but I appreciate how patient you are towards me. You calm my fears about being alone. You help me through the tough times and  you're there to celebrate the good times. You make me laugh and smile more than you have in  years. You make me test my boundaries. But above all, you accept me.

Acceptance was all I ever wanted. I needed someone to accept my flaws. I needed someone to accept that I worry a lot. I needed someone to push me so I don't get stuck in this scary world that is often not suited for people with disabilities but at the same time accept that I am trying my hardest and I may not do something in a traditional fashion.

I've fallen in love more deeply than I could imagine (and that is saying a lot because I'm super expressive with my emotions).

I know four months is not a long time for most people, but for me it's a huge deal. Other than people who are related to me, I can count the number of people on one hand who have remained close to me after four months. I know that you will be in my life for a long time and I fall in love with you more and more every single day. I am proud to be your girlfriend, and more importantly I am proud that you are my boyfriend. I love you.